| Apr. 13th, 2007 @ 01:38 pm Still analyzing |
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Current Mood:  hopeful
I hadn't had a chance to talk to Heather since a brief chat on Tuesday. She knew that Dan and I had made up, but I didn't really want to get into the whole things with her while Dan was sitting right there. Another reason I'm glad we're moving to a bigger apartment. There really is no privacy in the shit shack. Since she'd not had a propper update, she's still thinking of Monday when I was all over emotional and irrational and blowing everything out of proportion tell her that I was going to leave him and that I was miserable.
I'm not really as miserable as I was admitting to her. I was upset, but I have misconstrewed congative thoughts when I'm really upset or tired and in reality things are not that bad. So anyway, I was trying to explain that to her and she thought I was making excuses for Dan by blaming things on myself, which was NOT what was I was doing. I was making excuses for my behaviors and emotions on Monday.
She still isn't convinced that I'm happy and that Dan and I should be together. She said that I never say nice things about Dan and if I talk about him, they are usually negative things. I tried to explain to her that when you are with someone for a long time the fuzzy cutesy wears off. When once you would melt every time he looked in your direction or even touched your hands you would wet yourself, you get used to his presence. This is especially when you live with that person. It wears off twice as fast. I dated Andy for about a year before we moved in together and there was a definate difference in the romance after we were domestic partnerts. This is one regret about Dan and I moving in together so soon. We interupted out honeymoon period of our relationship and jumped right in to domestication. So now, I see him every day and I sleep in the same bed as him every night. We are poor, so we go few places, we are stressed, so we have few moments to gaze into eachother's eyes or even watch TV together.
She's never been with anyone for more than a year, so she doesn't know what happesn, plus her and Nick didn't live together that long before she wanted to kill him, so she can't possibly understand what reality it really like in a long term relationship.
In other news...I'm showing the apartment to 4 people on Sunday and 1 on Monday! I really hope someone takes it, so we can move out. :) |